True RabFessions

6.12.22

Last week I was at ... I was googling my son's name and his photo came up. I grabbed my phone & held it close to my heart. I've cried everyday since. I can't let go of the moment because I miss him so much. He thinks that I've said & done things that I have not. I can't move beyond nor process the situation. My son is not a truthseeker. He busily erasing hinself from the internet; coaching from BPD? Perhaps ... so that he never gets near the truth.

I sometimes stay in Burbank or sit on Front so that I can connect with normal & good. So that my glass is seen as half-full instead of half-empty. #520

6.15.22

I got to 🚽 pee a bunch of times without LT listening to me - Victory is mine! [It's the little things I'm grateful for].

6.16.22

In 1980, Venice Beach, I wanted some pot (so unlike me) guy selling on the beach & I had no cash so I wrote a check .... and he took it. 😅😅

6.17.22

I've already cried, several times, regarding my behavior towards the pilots 😭😢😭😢😭😢😭

~2010 

I wish I'd never heard the MD & gone outside to see. smh 😪 Nothing but a fg heartache because of how I am, coupled with '76. Well, I'm over it. Period. However, when Mack told me I would be homeless, I was so scared that I printed out 76's pic and put it on my pillow. Who fg does that? Someone who is scared that was forced to take care of others instead of being parented. No biggy. I'll just be afraid and deal with it. The days of 76 are long gone.

7.8.22

I bought Revlon stock, how you know I'm depressed and pain, left untreated intense chronic untreated can lead to death; pd hopin'. just in case 🐰💙🚁