My Entire Life ... waiting

Waiting for people to change or come around ... 😂

Waiting for my mom & my dad too, for that matter, to love me as much as they did my brothers. It never happened; it got worse as the years went on. Major reason I reached out to '76.

Waited for H#1 to grow up and treat me as well as he did his parents. Nope.

Waited for H#2 to stop physically abusing me & flirting with other women in AA meetings in front of me. Nope. The abuse got worse & worse.

I waited my whole life to be faithful to my partners. Nope. To this day I prefer married men, used to, because it's less messy & user friendly. I"ve never been faithful ... ever. In short, I"m worse than a cop 🐰🤷‍♀️

I waited my whole to meet my bio dad & to know his [and my legal last name]. Nope. No one would tell me. Honestly, I didn't put that much effort into looking because I was afraid to hurt my adopted Dad's feelings.

I waited for H#3 to stop abusing me & the kids. Nope, it just got worse.

I've waited how God Damn long for the FBI & BPD to tell the truth? Nope! Never going to happen & neither is the severity of my pain & suffering ... sooooo, 💉💊

*People don't change, either because they can't or won't.

Soooooo, the road of expectation is paved with disappointment & adult decisions. ~AA